This is a hard blog to write. I am embarrassed.
I’ve been exploring how to simplify my life more lately and I read several blogs (see bottom of left column) daily about how to do so. If I read enough about simplification, write enough about it, then my life will be simpler. Right?
Wrong. As a person of faith, it’s kind of like reading the sacred scripture of your faith and agreeing with the concepts in your head, and saying “I believe that,” whatever “that” is, but ultimately it changes nothing. My behavior is the true evidence.
So, the real question is why do I want to simplify my life?
My faith invites and requires me to do so. That matters to me.
And this is where I am uncomfortable, and for good reason. I work hard at two jobs so that I can provide for myself and family to have enough food, water, shelter, and clothing. And so much more.
My faith is important to me. But unless I can see it in the way I live, I am a fool and liar.
To put it more simply, my faith says I am supposed to care for the “least of these.” As a start, the least of these include the thirsty and hungry, and those who do not have enough clothes. I am supposed to visit persons who are sick and care for them, and I am supposed to visit those in prison.
As a chaplain in a hospital, I’m working on visiting and caring for the sick. But on the rest, I flunk the test on a daily basis. Except sometimes at Thanksgiving and Christmas.
I have fooled myself into thinking that by tipping God at my church (10%), the rest of my resources can be used any way I want. Not true. And my behavior right now really does reflect what I believe. I don’t like what I am seeing one bit. I am not satisfied with it.
I know I’m being hard on myself, but I have to be in order to get my attention!
How can I live in a radically, clear way that validates my faith. One step at a time.
Does anyone else struggle with this issue?
I’d love to hear how we can work on this together.
I would appreciate some company.