Since I announced the beginning of my transition from my job as Chaplain at The 1917 (HIV) Clinic to become the Director of Pastoral Care at the hospital beginning October 5th, I am keenly aware of living in two worlds.
On one hand, I am saying goodbye to as many patients as possible whom I have come to know and love over the years.
I am calling or emailing almost 25 patients per day to make sure they hear the news directly from me. I want them to know that the valuable lessons they taught me will be shared with many others in my new ministry. I want them to know that I love them and am grateful for them. And finally, I want them to know that there will continue to be staff at The 1917 Clinic who will love them and care for them after I am gone.
I am spending time with staff, leaning in office doorways and talking about how much I appreciate the work each one does on a daily basis. There are meetings as I hand off some of my duties to my colleagues who are eager and willing to pick up my responsibilities in the meantime.
I am also keenly aware that ALL that I wanted to get done before I leave in two weeks won’t be finished. I am trying to prioritize these tasks but this place will go on regardless what I do in the meantime. And I am deeply thankful for that.
And on the other hand, I am developing goals and priorities for my new challenges at the hospital. Even though the hospital is only 4 blocks away, it is another world.
So in the meantime, what are my priorities as I live in this world of “in-between?”
- Take care of myself physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
- Let go of the idea I will ever get “finished” and that is ok.
- Breathe deeply and trust that there is a bigger purpose in all of this that I cannot see.
And the truth is that all of us live in the world of in-between.
We live between the world of “what has been” and the world of “what will be.” This land of in-between is called the “what is.”
And the only way to live in the “what is” is to pay attention, and to be present to what is going on today, right in front of us.
For that is all we have. And it is enough.