I find it ironic that I am writing about simplifying my life in order to live more meaningfully during these 40 days of Lent.
In the last week I have committed to “spending more time with God daily,” “focusing on quality time with my wife,” and writing every day on my blog for forty days.
Some of you also know that I accepted a new job in the last five months that has me busier than I have been since I was in my 20’s. And if that’s not enough, I accepted more duties within this same timetable in a “moonlighting second job” that I have had been doing for several years. This doesn’t sound like simplifying my life!
I am over-committed, over-promised, and overwhelmed. Have you been there? Do you know what this feels like?
When I asked Mary if I have been like this during our whole marriage, she answered truthfully, “No, you’ve had pretty good boundaries between work and home until you started your new job, and it’s been different since then.” And she was right.
I am learning that living more simply is not about committing to do more, trying harder, or making more promises to “do better.” Too many promises makes life complicated, not simpler.
Sometimes to live more simply means to forgive yourself, and to let go of promises that are impossible to keep.
And so I will get out my calendar tomorrow, take a hard look at my commitments in coming weeks, and start saying I’m sorry but I won’t be able to do this or that commitment.
Deep breath. Maybe it’s time to offer grace to myself. How about you?
Peace to you along the journey.